The God of a Schizophrenic (Poem) by JCSolis-Lit, literature
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The God of a Schizophrenic (Poem)
The God of a Schizophrenic By J.C. Solis Why must I suffer this pain so profound? Why must I keep this mind that is unsound? Why, My Lord, must I keep feeling this pain? A feeling that just never seems to wane Why, My Father, do you allow this woe? For why must I deal with this heavy foe? Why must I feel toyed, as part of a game? A victim of this Evil with no name For I clung to faith, which waned ever so And I hope that you will now see and know How, over these years, I have lost my mind How the world is cruel to those of my kind Why, My Father, do I hear not a word? Why have you abandoned your loyal herd? Why must my tears still be shed down my face? Why do I still not feel your warm embrace? I know some people would say that I’m wrong To sing your praise and honor you in song That I would dare to still honor your name Despite this ordeal being yours to blame But I’ve clung true despite these foul recants I’ve denied so long the seeds that they’d plant I’ve shunned
You stand alone in midnight streets Where they left you to the cold At the intersection where you’d meet Before your company grew old. It’s a habit set into your bones To linger and ruminate, But to find somewhere to call home You must break this habit’s sway.
A blanket of shadow falls over The midday of my life. The illusion of dusk prompts silence. I steal a fleeting, furtive glimpse Of what is written in the stars for me, But I do not recognize myself. Next time I meet the warm, revealing sun Will I like who I have become?
From the unstable limbs I learn that Exhaustion builds upon itself. Each passing day drains reserves Until legs are leaden And muscles do ache. Slowly, you see There will be Nothing Left.
You rehearse stock answers, Turning even truths into Simple-minded platitudes. Words are stripped of meaning By repetition and your inability To follow them up with action.
I hover on the precipice of action, The jagged stones of failure below Taunting me and coaxing out my every doubt. A gauntlet lies between myself and stable ground: Legal hoops and financial hurdles, Safety concerns of every make and model. If I do not make the jump, If I plummet instead… Where do I go from there?
True, Anger Festers there Beneath your skin And, in time, it will Ensnare your thoughts in wrath. It will consume all reason, But what will you do about it? It grows unbidden in the shadows, The sole strategy at your disposal.
Steal away my peace of mind Like leaves displaced from windswept trees, Gone in the gale or deposited downhill. Batter my senses with chaos: Raindrops on skylights or window panes, All noise and no clarity. When the storm clears I can breathe a count of four And begin the accounting: What remains after you’ve blown through?
Decoration, by Definition by cryptated, literature
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Decoration, by Definition
They paint on expectations In every color and pattern imaginable, But beneath their shell I contain multitudes. (A little bit of everything sans Vitamin C.) Isn’t that enough? Requests to be seen clearly Are met with offers of fresh paint, Each painter believing their brush to be Something magical and unique. Thankfully, The barriers you set around me are brittle.